I am so over my job. You know those people that would rather find someone to BLAME than actually fix a problem? Those are my colleagues. And it's killing me. I am so stressed out at work right now it's making me literally sick. Like, I want to puke sick. My neck is so tense it's screaming in pain. I need to get out...I just need to get out. *sigh* The problem is, I can't quit and pay for K's daycare... and we can't give up her spot at daycare because I will not be staying home, it would just be until I found a new job (which I am hoping, praying will happen soon... I should hear this week from the company I am interviewing with) But if that falls through we just can't afford for me to stay home AND pay for daycare, well we could I gues, but it would suck. Ugh. I hate this. Your job should NOT make you sick!
This morning was not a morning that helped with the mommy guilt either. Mike brought K up to our room while I was getting dressed. She was in our bed so I snuck in to cuddle with her for a minute. She said to me "lay down mommy" I told her "I can't sweetie, I have to get ready for work" She started crying saying "no, no mommy... no work" OMG... tear my heart out kid! She just kept saying over and over "mommy lay down, mommy nuggle (snuggle), mommy no work" That working mom guilt was on overdrive this morning, and then to go to a job where I am treated like crap? It was more than I could take.
Well, I am a bundle of fun, eh???
3 comments:
I'm sorry, Chelsea. I know the feeling of a job making you sick. It used to take all the strength I had not to pull off the freeway and go back home. I hope good news comes soon!
Oh Chelsea - I've totally been there and done that. :( I'm sorry you're having such a rough time with work lately. I hope something better shows up soon.
Chelsea, I feel your pain. You know my job blows, and on days when J used to howl when I left him at school, I'd drive to work, just sobbing - mad that I had to go to my sucky job, and that I had to leave my child in tears to go do something I hated. {{{HUGS}}} Here's hoping we both have better jobs soon.
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